Old school

Can anyone tell me what I'm looking at... Yep that's an old vintage middle school sharpener and my grams bf gave it to me yay!!!

the b-day jitters

mood: tired\nervous
song of the day: russian roulette - rihanna

ok so today is my birthday and although i am happy that im now a year older, im not happy that once again i celebrate my birthday alone...no boyfriend (broke up with quincie) and no sisters (they moved out) and no parents (they have to work all day) and although im ecstatic that my birthday present is the money to get my drivers license im not so ecstatic about my pre-test jitters. i hope i pass cuz my mom says i only get one try and if i fail well then to bad. so i really hope i pass well imma go to bed so im not to tired to take the test in a couple of hours.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

shiver

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow! hey ok so lately I've seen alot of snow and lets just say I'm not a big fan of white...i wish i could live over in the Bahamas or a place with lots of sun i honestly think that the world should have no COLD and that everywhere should be like the Bahamas or Hawaii that would rock...anyways so my b-day is coming up and imma get my drivers license as a gift for myself i think I'm old enough to drive a car now no more waiting. unfortunately if i want to get my drivers license (g2 not g1) then my parental units are gonna have to teach me eventually. and its hard enough getting them to give ME a ride i mean i get it traffic sucks after work but i gotta learn somehow. anyways enough of my ranting or I'm sure someone gonna complain. anyways feel free to leave comments I'm itching to read what you think of me so far...and a little advice would be much appreciated.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

lone wolf

so yesterday i met up with my ex boyfriend 'astro boy' (cuz hes got to have a cute name to match his cute face) and hung out with him at quincie's place and played video games and unfortunetely i was stuck in the middle of them swapping stories about me i just wanted to duck tape they're mouths XS but unfortunetely they didnt have any duck tape at the store so that was a total train wreck anyways quincie let me borrow his PS2 because mines in the repair shop so my dad took total control this morning and passed me in the game so i had like a total SPOILER ALERT!!! it totally sucked. then i get to school and they stick me in a group of 3 guys for cooking...and well i think you know where im going with this...none of the guys were paying any attention to the food we had to make cinamon dough 3 times and still didnt get it right...on top of that two guys were messing around in my group one stepped on my foot and the other one made me smash my face off the counter (by accident but it was still frustrating) , then they decided to go in the fridge and touch another classes bacon the whole class almost got suspended from the kitchen till after christmas because of them and then because i was the only girl there they put me on dish duty and clean-up duty atleast the third guy who didnt get into any trouble or anything, and refused any help what so ever (but he did suck at mesuring shit) lets call him BB (for baby brother cuz hes like a brother to me i guess you could say) well BB helped clean up and we got it done pretty fast (it would have gone faster if he didnt stop to talk to...EVERYONE) anyways then when that class was done i went to my last class and for the first 10 minutes i was the only student then right when my teacher was ready to give up on waiting and start the class 6 guys walk into the class (what is it with me being stuck with only guys) well anyways so i tried to participate as much as i could and ignore the stares of the guys and then 20 minutes later like a angel from above a girl came into class (yay) and she was in like the popular croud so they stopped staring at me (whew) and started staring at her (thank GOD) well schools over so i g2g...

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

cinamon swirls

mood:  tired/sad
song of the day:  is it you - cassie

heyy world so as of late ive had a lot of things happen so i got into a major kick ass fight with a total "popular" she called me a dirty ashtray and then threw her disgusting sig at me and then slapped me so i tackled her to the cement and rubbed her face off the cement and punched and kicked her while she tried to claw my damn face off and pulled my hair (technically i didnt do anything wrong because she hit me first so its technically called 'self defense') anyways so i got suspended for a week and met a guy lets call him 'Quincie' anyways so i met quincie and shakespear thought he had me figured out cuz he thought i liked quincie so he got a major attitude so me and quincie left his place and hung out together (me and quincie) anyways so now me and quincie are dating...2 weeks today. hes super sweet and handsom but now shakespear dosnt even want to talk to me he wont answer the door or the phone or any facebook msg's...i should have known that nothing comes without a price. gain a boyfriend but loose a friend/crush.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

haze

so im at school right now and so far i havent slept for 48 hours and its freezing outside so once i walk into the school its like my ears are on fire and since the school hates me i spent my lunch running laps around the school track field...well my teacher is calling so i have to go make garlic bread. bye.

workshop

ok so lately my teacher has been makeing all of us go to these kinda workshop things to learn all about the topic like todays workshop is about addictions and d-tox or rehab and crap but im not really interested in learning this stuff. starnge addictions can teach me this stuff but in more details so yeah no need for this workshop...so here i am typing away on my laptop. im kinda bored but the music is keeping me from totally knocking out tho its getting harder and harder especially since this place is so damn cold i mean has this school never heard of the famous world wide used HEATER!!! but no they all decide to bring winter jackets...watever anyways i g2g post on my story blog coreliandoza.


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

friday meyhem!!!

ok so like a month ago we got new neibhors in our building and ever snce they moved in every friday night they have they're music blasting and they're yelling till 3am so i cant get any sleep what so ever and my mom got fed up tonight and called the cops so they should be here bustin down the party in around 5 minutes and i've got a great window seat so i can watch it all happen. i know what im saying is pretty mean but common they had to see it coming i mean seriously they're yelling out the lyrics to S&M by rihanna. not that i dont like the song and everything, dont get me wrong i love rihanna's music as much as the next teenage girl but enough is enough its one in the morning SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID DRUNK IDIOTS!!! pardon my language im tired

coreliandoza

ok so i've been working on not only this blog but also another one called coreliandoza but the thing is that blog is actually a fiction story im working on and since i want my mom to see how good i am at writing stories i told her about it so she checked it out and now she keeps asking me when im gonna add a post and shes telling all her friends about it so im super happy!!! oh and major news i think im in love...again. see i met this guy lets call him william shakespear. well shakespear is like my dream guy he's funny, hot, smart, he has a divers liscence and he has a job only problem is he's 4 years older then me so what am i gonna do especially since he's so against his own cousin dating a guy 4 years older than her. but i know there's a spark between us and he can feel it to i mean the way he looks at me like the only one around and the way he talks to me more than anyone else and the way he got jealous when he thought i liked someone else... what am i gonna do i cant ask him out but if i dont ill never know if i could have had a chance. god please give me a sign, anything!!!


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

silent library

ok so today i stopped by the library (fav place in the known galaxy) and the librarian told me she was going to a book auction to get more books for the school and asked if i could suggest a few good books and as usual i was all over that i suggested getting a bigger manga section for those kids who only like picture books or for people who actually like manga's and one day dream of being a mangakai like in anicon (a manga in the library) that mentions one of my fav events of the year the anime/manga convention they hold in toronto every year i was so looking forward to it but i missed it over march break last year (crud) anyways so i was raiding the book shelves when i stumbled onto one of my fav books 'vampire kisses' so i grabbed all three books that the library owned (killer!!!) well i gots to go


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

Go-Go Girl!!!

so my life is still hectic as usual but that's no shocker! i still have to pick up after EVERYONE!!! but yeah its alright just use me like a pack mule and throw me away! its what your good at big sister (cynthia) you use me every time then throw me away once your done with me and then if i try to rebel you run with your skinny tail between your legs well this time I'm grabbing you by the tail back to reality and giving you what you so righteously deserve a dish rag and a load of dishes followed by a reality check topped with a good stern talk.

captain obvious

so my dad keeps talking about how i could be so great at everything i do if i only tried and how I'm smarter than this and that I'm not even using 10% effort right now. well DUH!!! maybe its because I'm in a shit ass school in a shit ass neighborhood with teachers who don't even care of coarse i wont try at least not until something peaks my interest because honestly i don't even want to be all that smart i just want to be normal like everybody else i don't want to be a smarty pants loser who gets beat up all the time trust me been there done that and plus if i actually become smarter he'll just get bossier and ill get more responsible and everything will change again i don't want anything to change but it seems that's his goal in life for me to be his perfect daughter i mean he wants me to be super smart and he wants me to get a job and he wants me to always fetch things for him and... sorry I'm becoming a blabbermouth aren't i...well ciya next time


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

break time

so as i've said my life is sorta hectic but now that i've joined a sort of program thingy at school things are getting better i can finally think things threw and not have to make big desicions left and right so in a sense its my break time well i have to go finish up a couple of things but ill be back


so keep your feet off the ground and keep your head in the clouds.

and the wheels keep on turning

so school started back up and well what can i say life hasnt exactly gone from freaky to normal actually quite the contrary its gone from freaky to way way freaky... i thought once i gave up on a guy i liked lets call him 'Blaze' that life would go back to normal and i could start a new school year fresh but i was dead wrong once the school year started my big sister 'cynthia' totally bailed on us so i was left defenseless against what happened next. blaze put his number on facebook and told me he wanted to be just friends so i kinda couldnt say sorry buddy but im kinda trying to get over you, so i accepted to be his friend but then i was in a major slump cuz my best friend 'bambam' told me she was moving so i saw his number on my cellphone (i had saved it just in case) and had a moment of weakness so i called him, now i know how stupid that was so the moment he picked up i hung up but then he called my house claiming i had just called a bob and without thinking i corrected him giving away my identity (cuz he knows me so well he knew i would corect him) and making him know that i didnt call him by mistake so we talked and that is how my worst nightmare began

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

my return to civilisation

so i went to a whole different province this month to visit my aunt it was crazy and i had fun. but, like every other day in my life there was major drama... but, it wasn't all bad drama i had a summer love, it was so sweet, pool boy meets girl next door. he was such a hotty and he was so sweet i couldn't help but turn red when my little cousin 'pip skweak' told him I'd been crushing on him for over 2 weeks (one of the many reasons i cant stand her XI ) but then we started to go out and it was fun we went swimming on his shift at the pool and we walked around when i was bored with being at my aunts but like any good story there is always an ending mine just so happened to be us breaking up because i had to go back home which a.k.a. is 5 hours away...       :'( life can be really cruel.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

wonderland

when Alice was in wonderland she was very confused about everything guess its my turn to be confused in my little wonderland...

lately I've been confused about everything i cant decide on what to eat or what to watch or what to talk about its just like my mind has shut down and worst of all on my dads birthday i had completely forgotten so i couldn't get him a gift i felt so bad s i got him two cheesy cards and one said happy fathers day :'( 

i just wanted to hide in a corner and cry my eyes out at how stupid i was. but he liked it thank god.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

kitty

i always thought i needed a very detailed response but my black cat Bibi never says a word yet i always understand him... i guess i was wrong. i guess actions speak louder than words. it just took a while for me to understand.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

baby steps

I've always been afraid of trying new things like new food or a new flavour of ice cream but lately I've been trying to change...it took a bit of convincing but i was able to try some great food at a Korean restaurant and i can honestly say i am a fan of wild rice it was CRAZY DELICIOUS. and I've even decided to try watching new shows on TV and not the same old same old and I've even got up the courage to watch movies online instead of always at movie theatres. i guess you just have to take baby steps before you can reach your goal. well that's all for now.


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground...LMFAO XD

random

i know this might be random but when i was feeling down someone told me to check out the show 'life unexpected' and well it was...well...unexpected. i really like the show because for once its not like a fairy tale or a nightmare or something that you wish you had. its the truth. its all about life and its twist and turns and about a not so perfect family trying desperately to make it, in our broken little world. finally a TV show that dosnt seem like a TV show... if you've ever watched it im sure you've made some kind of connection and that you thought for even just a second 'wow i can kinda relate a little'.


well thats all for my random midnight mumbling... lmfao       XD

blazing heat

wow, its not even summer yet and its blazing hot outside... time to hit the beach...or the pool... i was so happy today when my teacher had announced that my class would be getting free ice cream the only problem was, no one thought i should get any ice cream because i don't really participate much in class... i mean i try to participate, but, most of the things we do in my class are group activities or group projects and not many people want to be in my group... so i was really surprised when one of my classmates and my teacher both vouched for me... even if its almost the end of the school year, this semester was pretty cool and i hope that the people i met at this school had a great year to.


i cant wait till I'm an adult so that i can see what everyone has become whether its a scientist, an architect or a ballet instructor I'm sure it will be fantastic. XD

...

i feel very lonely. i've always tried to stand out but when i do they think im a freak and ignore me... am i wrong to try and stand out or am i wrong to stay quiet? even if i ask, i never get an answer... it worries me when people talk about me dying alone like the old lady with 12 cats, but sometimes i ask myself if she was ever happy and then i get confussed again...


                                                             whoops im mumbling again... -_-'

hi

hi.


im a very confussed personne, i dont have alot of friends and i get nervous very easily. i really want to change the way i am but im having alot of trouble doing that.