19 and counting

mood of the day: pissed off at sister but kinda happy to be going out and hanging with a friend.
song of the day: out of control by hoobastank

ok sorry its been like forevs since my last post but i had a shit ton to do this last year and im still busy even today. im actually getting ready to go out and stay at a friends for a few nights for some heavy thinking. but yeah so im 19 now and yet i still have the privileges of a fucking 16 year old like WTF!!! i have a curfew of 10 pm and i can only drink when my parents give me permission and i still cant choose my own goddamn friends. i mean yeah sure im under their roof and i aint got no where else to go but i mean seriously atleast let me stay out till midnight i mean i have a car and license not like someones gonna jump into my car while im on the highway. i know safety precautions and i know never to go out alone after the sun has set because i am still a girl and there are still scumbags out there. anyways. now ive got other problems to top it off, the death count in my fam has grown quite a bit since my last post but thats a bit morbid so i wont talk much about it other than this. also my sister cynthia is back at home TEMPORARILY and so far she has fucked me over every day since. first with becoming a babysitting slave to her son which FYI is not my job. if i wanted to change diapers and lose my social life i would have given birth to my own little rascal but i didnt so i wish she would get a clue and FUCK RIGHT OFF!!!. pardon all the swearing cynthia just pissed me right off today. well i gotta go, gonna go eat.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

Popsicles over dinner plates

Ok so sorry its been a while but i seriously need to rant because this shit is fucked up. Ok so i was hungry and my dad had a friend over so i go downstairs and i ask my dad if he picked something up or if he decided to make something just cuz i didnt feel like making anything so then he says nope so i go looking for some food but my stomache feels like something sweet so i go to the garage and pull out a popsicle cuz i want something sweet that i dont have to make myself so then i go eat it in the kitchen because im not aloud to eat food in the living room so im just eating my popsicle and later when my dads friend is gone, my dad starts yellin at me saying i was making him look bad because i sapposedly 'insinuated' that i wanted a meal and by my choice of food i sapposedly gave out some sos saying we aint got no food but get this, this very same friend visits us all the time and im always complaining we dont have space in the fridge for his greek yogourt BECAUSE we have to much food!!! Like fuck i swear my dads just making shit up to hate me about so when i turn 18 he can just kick me out for all the shit i sapposedly 'planned' and sapposedly 'insinuated' dude im a fuckin 17 year im not fuckin albert einstein not everyone is as paranoid as you ya fuckin asshole i mean god what does a girl have to do to get a break around here! Well anyways i g2g

So keep your feet off the ground and keep your head in the clouds

Baby balloon splash

Yay so baby Gavin is finally born and already giving my sister a hard time XD and we had ourselves a b-day partay for our pops with French butter cream cake yümmy love the cake. Lookin for an awesome pawsome job since I need some cheddar $$$ if imma gonna take my bacon across the world. So wanna travel the world im even learning Japanese. Gonna be so fun.

So keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

GAVIN!!!

ok so its once again been quite some time since my last post but watev. life's just been cray cray and getting weirder and crazier by the second. so angel moved out again and so once again im left all on my lonesome plus i got fired so no more work and school is over so like fuck im home alone all the time with like only 2 friends who sure they are like tots awesome but they still go to school so i can only see them after school and well its never easy. plus my old man keeps giving me like a list of things to do before he leaves for work -_- YAY cuz you know its every young girls dream to spend summer vacay cleaning a fuckin house like seriously im not the maid here. and of coarse my life is like majorly unstable like today i was like crazy worried cuz my sis cynthia is prego yes people i know what your thinking ( AGAIN ) yepers she is having a beautiful (i hope) bouncing baby boy were all excited to welcome GAVIN to the family well its getting late night

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

trains, plates and buffets

mood: tired/cornered
song of the day: SCAVA by hollywood undead


ok so things have been well... frustratingly crazy i have school and work and doctors appointments and councillors appointments and chores and OY where is my life in this whole thing.... guess i lft it back on planet earth and hey look its calling me back with a slamming call from my friend who wants to get me to be his date for a double date oh great!... not so much, the guy i tots liked and proffessed my love to is the guy me and oly are doubling up with and yeah i called him oly its his nic name... well anyways things are tots not gonna go well all because oly told me he likes me and i told the other guy.... lets call him dirty nick... well i told dirty nick i loved him but he said its not in his personality to date me.... watev that means, well anyways now i cant pull out of the double date because oly made me promise i would go and not chicken out just cuz of dirty nick.   -_-    boys.    well then ive got like my whole angel dish prob because my sister angel see's i have this very messy plate full of work and school and other stuff but shes not hungry so she thinks its ok to add her drama to my plate and now its overflowing... delicious!    -_-   to bad i already had a buffet and desert NO THANK YOU! well im tired goodnight!

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground   XD

catch my breath

mood: invisible
song of the day: catch my breath - kelly clarkson

lately its been emilie this and emilie that but not in the way i wish it would be... its been 'emilie can you lend XXX 400$ she really needs it and she'll pay you back' or 'emilie can i borrow money' not that i dont like that people depend on me and all but it just seems like im an atm and im even more invisible lately because my sis angel and my gramps and cynthia and my grams and the neighbhor and the man at the market... all their problems are soooooo much more important than me... because you know i was born to stay in the corner to dispense money like a goddamn tree or atm. 

oh yeah just tug my branches i love spitting money like its all ive got to offer (sarcasm) -_-  . and yeah i get it, parents have the same problem for years when their kids fav question is "can i have 5 bucks" or "but everyone else has one!!!" lolz i now feel your pain parents of the world. then theres the whole skin prob at school where for the first week at my new school 'joes' i didnt feel normal in my own skin when ever i left the classroom. especially in the cafe... but now im getting used to the fact that people avoid me like the plague. but hey im used to it. and no that dosnt mean its time to call the school cop squad and force people to stop staring like i showed up to school in a clown suit. it means i might actually study during lunch or heck i might just start having lunch in class...... ok maybe not XD unless my new bff chey chey decides to stay XD it would rock. we could talk about how socilalogy mixes with phycology if not given a proper analysis by a doctor or how many times inuyasha kissed kagome in season 2 of inuyasha i think ive counted 9 so far XD... well im logging off for the night... ciya compadres

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

the glass castle

mood: sick and way tired
song of the day: thanks for nothing by the downtown fiction

ok so i know i havent written anything in like way long but nothings been normal as usual so my sisters and their boy toys broke up like for the 17th time for angel and her ex danny boy and like the 7th times for cynthia and her boy toy lucifer and cynthia got her own place and took my darling niece with her bye bye kat :(  oh well what can you do its her kid after all. anyways and i've started up at a new school not as good as ESCSF but still pretty cool. the school is like a freaken castle 3 floors of hallways that you can get lost in and the cafeteria on the first floor shares its space with one of those castle towers looking things and a glass roof library heaven. XD after class i hide in there reading books till its time for the library to close. i love the library it has an awesome supernatural section with vampire academy in its collection (oh sweet mother of all that is holy i love the library) and a pretty good manga section i mean of coarse they have the cliche usual that like every other school in the country has but they dont have a book on naruto shippuden ofcoarse and yet again there is no sign of amazing agent luna :'(  oh well the search is not over yet. but they do have good books like snow drop and INVU and vampire game... i havent read vampire game yet but the cover looks pretty awesome and it has vampire so its gotta be good. well i wont know till i read it so... well and then i finally met my new fam doc and he's ok im just glad he's not a pill pusher and does his job pretty thoroughly so thats always awesome... well i gotta go my stomache is killing me from cramps i drank spoiled milk and im feeling sick as a dog. lolz leave it to me to make yet another mistake. been doing that alot lately. lolz well ciya round.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

web of confussion

mood: bored
song of the day: sharada by skye sweetnam

ok so lately things have been... kinda hectic. new school, new brother in law, new friends... well you get the point... its new everything and the surprises are far from over. just last night my father and brother in law got into this huge arguement and my brother in law was a total jerk about it and made my sister cry. that was not fun. but then again my dad wasnt a saint either, he offered my brother in law 50$ to leave and never come back (smooth move dip shit). i just wish things could be more simple and less.... a big web of confussion with a couple of shattered dream flies and a big spider wanting to continue spining this web of confussion. well i got to go cuz my next class is starting but this rant is not over...

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

bored, wild and untamed

mood: ick
song of the day: been there done that - hedley

sorry i havent written in like a damn century but this shit is seriously getting on my nerves and i seriously hafta write about this like pronto cuz im on the verge of ripping my hair out. ok so first i moved cities hoping all my problems were over... YEAH RIGHT LIKE THATS EVER GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!!! then i started at this new french school awesome tastic uniforms. people here r super fake here tho unless you find those rare diamonds in the rough as they say but its tough. then ive got a crazy strict math teacher (secretly love the way she teaches cuz it keeps me on track) and then theres this crazy geography class that instead of the teacher telling you everything, the students and the teacher are all yelling in debate and we end up googling absolutely everything, but the teacher acts like an ass. then ive got this awesome english teacher who makes me think of the cupcake grandma who spreads the love...oh and i have this wild dance teacher who has a killer fashion and can even make a crap dancer like me be able to do ballet like ive been doing it for years. then i have this awesome new french teacher who reminds me to a little petite teacup pixie she so cute. lolz. and friendly... oh and then my bro and sis are back and they've been causin one hell of a ruckus... yes i used the word ruckus shoot me if you will but it needed to be said. oh and dont get me started on my idea of a job. who has time for a life when you have 4 hours worth of homework. XD i tried and passed out on the couch during population percentage of canada's prairie as oposed to quebec and ontario.... BORING AS HELLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!' but i sapposedly hafta do it oh well. oh and then i have this geo friend that i always debate with he rocks the house with his quadratic equations and amazing art from down in the garage.... XD, well i think i've babbled enough for today. ill see ya on the flip side

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

end of summer, back to bummer

mood: tired/calm

song of the day: sparks are gonna fly by jd

k so i know its been forever since i last wrote anything but give me a break ive been threw ALOT of drama ok so cynthia got a super cool bf lets call him lucifer and now he and cynthia live with me at my parents. great -_- 

oh and did i mention my sis angel dated a 32 year old man and she's only 19... shes still out of her mind but watev's and now she's with army brat munroe but hey its watev once again cuz i gotta stay outta her shit. oh and ive been keeping bussy baby sitting 3 diff kids like every day... when will the sugar brat's stop climbing walls i mean seriously i have more bruises from them then when i wrestle with older guys... not that ive done that this year since guys nowadays run with their tails between their scrawny still legs which surprisingly look sexy in skinny jeans cept when the emo gay trany's do the splits 0.0 there are just some things you cant unsee. but anyways now im just waitin for my parents to find a place in mississauga so i can finally transfer to... drum roll please.... STEPHEN LEWIS HIGH SCHOOL!!! its like high school musical without the dancing fagots. sorry but theres just something about zac efron that scream he wants it in the ass... now im also watching the show AWKWARD and thats what got me thinking i should maybe start writting here again oh and i started a radio show. i would love to give you the link but then my identity would be known and we defenetely cant have that happening now can we. oh and before i forget im happy to announce that ive upgraded my phone from a blackberry to an android... yes i had to announce that just to prove adults are right about how teens are literally glued to phones maybe if im lucky this will convince a mom to buy a girl a cool new phone... heres to hopping... oh and please feel free to leave a comment or msg or even just like the page in the little boxes below thankies

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground XD

nothing inside

mood: confused/conflicted
song of the day: bring me to life by evanessance
so now that im back with my parents im getting a bit of freedom yay but my sister came back and stole my room and now im stuck on the couch :'(
then i find out i might be prego... GREAT :'(
then my friend istrying to convince to go back to the shelter lets call my friend sodapop well she thinks the shelter would be better so that once im baack on wellfare we can get a place together but im fine right where i am cuz my parents care about me and their changing so that im not miserable and their helping me get back in school and got me a phone and getting me the things i need and their helping me get a G2 license and a job to pay for my future car plus i never go hungry here so why would i leave ive seen the error of my ways and now i know im not yet ready to leave home...
Im babbling again lolz well im off to bed goodnight ;)
so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground XD
--- Sent from my Public Mobile phone. Everybody Talk.

disturbia

mood: tired/confused
song of the day: disturbia by rihanna
my sister cynthia's back and i have no where to sleep... We meet again... Couch!!! So im having a weird time right now i am with my niece kat and cynthia and my mom and instead of fishing my dad sent us for laundry and there seems to be a never ending pile of it.
so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground
--- Sent from my Public Mobile phone. Everybody Talk.

the future

Mood: happy
song of the day: domino by jessie j
i love how i can txt my responses now from around the world... Even under bridges and in elevators im sooooo happy!!! XD well im off to an appointment
so keep ur head in the clouds and keep ur feet off the ground

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mood: freaking out
song of the day: lullaby - nickleback

ok so recently i was in a little boy trouble and im freaking out about if i might be prego or not i mean im not my sister i cant just have a kid... i mean im just 16 for crist sake im wayyyyyyyyy to young for all that and plus how exactly will i ever get the money to pay for everything and how will i explain to my kid in the future why she dosnt have a dad and... see what i mean when i say im freaking out i mean WOULDNT YOU BE FREAKING OUT IF YOU WERE ME!!! then theres the whole i moved back in with my parents after two excrutiating months of the shelter life XD it rocked lolz but now im back where i started with a little extra bagage... well its to soon to know anyways so im gonna try and chill for about a month and then take a prego stick test XD i dont remember the name ok.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

mood: pissed off
song of the day: break - three days grace


i've had a pretty bad two weeks first my roomates wont let me use the bathroom cuz they think their hair is more important than someone needing to pee, then there was the one day where 3 of my roomies tried to wake me up by yelling, calling me names, taking my blanket and pillow, threatening to burn my nieces hello-kitty, throwing books and marbles at me and putting loud music up to my ear and then last but not least i finally got moved rooms (thank god) and they get my awesome new roomie sent to jail for somethin she didnt even do and then about an hour ago the girls come up to me all smiles and ask for a truce so they dont get discharged. talk about lame. anyways i g2g 


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

holy shitaki mushroom

mood: wont back down/refreshed
song of the day: hit the lights - selena gomez ft. the scene


so i know its been forever but i can explain myself. my dad took my laptop for a month and then i left his place and now live on my own and havent exactly had time to do my own thing its been more about how the hell im gonna get outta this shelter and move into my own place unfortunetely i dont think that will happen i only have about 2 days left here and my only other option is going to a sort of group home... great. but what other choice do i have its either that or i end up on the streets... and plus if i move in there i get around 2 or 3 hundred $$$ a month so it would help me get all my stuff together and figure out my next move without the whole pressure of only having a certain amount of time to find this dream place... well anyways i g2g cuz im actually in school right now.


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

Move

Move is a great song I'm glad I have it now... Well nowadays things have been crazy... K so second semester started and my enemies younger brother MCcain is in my class siting RIGHT beside me and it's killing me cuz he's tots hot and he makes me wanna kiss AND kill him at the same time like blaze did so I'm afraid of history repeating itself so I'm going out of my way to stay away from him but it's not working cuz he just gets closer he moves his chair closer and leans into my space and he pokes me and repeatedly says my name and takes my pen and other stuff during class it's irritating but I can't help but laugh cuz its so childish but at the same time cute that he tries so much... I'm mumbling...

So keep ur head in the clouds and keep ur feet off the ground

Bored

Now I know I haven't responded in forever but who cares I've been busy with exams... Anyways here is a pic of the greatest treat known to man...

Old school

Can anyone tell me what I'm looking at... Yep that's an old vintage middle school sharpener and my grams bf gave it to me yay!!!

the b-day jitters

mood: tired\nervous
song of the day: russian roulette - rihanna

ok so today is my birthday and although i am happy that im now a year older, im not happy that once again i celebrate my birthday alone...no boyfriend (broke up with quincie) and no sisters (they moved out) and no parents (they have to work all day) and although im ecstatic that my birthday present is the money to get my drivers license im not so ecstatic about my pre-test jitters. i hope i pass cuz my mom says i only get one try and if i fail well then to bad. so i really hope i pass well imma go to bed so im not to tired to take the test in a couple of hours.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

shiver

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow! hey ok so lately I've seen alot of snow and lets just say I'm not a big fan of white...i wish i could live over in the Bahamas or a place with lots of sun i honestly think that the world should have no COLD and that everywhere should be like the Bahamas or Hawaii that would rock...anyways so my b-day is coming up and imma get my drivers license as a gift for myself i think I'm old enough to drive a car now no more waiting. unfortunately if i want to get my drivers license (g2 not g1) then my parental units are gonna have to teach me eventually. and its hard enough getting them to give ME a ride i mean i get it traffic sucks after work but i gotta learn somehow. anyways enough of my ranting or I'm sure someone gonna complain. anyways feel free to leave comments I'm itching to read what you think of me so far...and a little advice would be much appreciated.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

lone wolf

so yesterday i met up with my ex boyfriend 'astro boy' (cuz hes got to have a cute name to match his cute face) and hung out with him at quincie's place and played video games and unfortunetely i was stuck in the middle of them swapping stories about me i just wanted to duck tape they're mouths XS but unfortunetely they didnt have any duck tape at the store so that was a total train wreck anyways quincie let me borrow his PS2 because mines in the repair shop so my dad took total control this morning and passed me in the game so i had like a total SPOILER ALERT!!! it totally sucked. then i get to school and they stick me in a group of 3 guys for cooking...and well i think you know where im going with this...none of the guys were paying any attention to the food we had to make cinamon dough 3 times and still didnt get it right...on top of that two guys were messing around in my group one stepped on my foot and the other one made me smash my face off the counter (by accident but it was still frustrating) , then they decided to go in the fridge and touch another classes bacon the whole class almost got suspended from the kitchen till after christmas because of them and then because i was the only girl there they put me on dish duty and clean-up duty atleast the third guy who didnt get into any trouble or anything, and refused any help what so ever (but he did suck at mesuring shit) lets call him BB (for baby brother cuz hes like a brother to me i guess you could say) well BB helped clean up and we got it done pretty fast (it would have gone faster if he didnt stop to talk to...EVERYONE) anyways then when that class was done i went to my last class and for the first 10 minutes i was the only student then right when my teacher was ready to give up on waiting and start the class 6 guys walk into the class (what is it with me being stuck with only guys) well anyways so i tried to participate as much as i could and ignore the stares of the guys and then 20 minutes later like a angel from above a girl came into class (yay) and she was in like the popular croud so they stopped staring at me (whew) and started staring at her (thank GOD) well schools over so i g2g...

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

cinamon swirls

mood:  tired/sad
song of the day:  is it you - cassie

heyy world so as of late ive had a lot of things happen so i got into a major kick ass fight with a total "popular" she called me a dirty ashtray and then threw her disgusting sig at me and then slapped me so i tackled her to the cement and rubbed her face off the cement and punched and kicked her while she tried to claw my damn face off and pulled my hair (technically i didnt do anything wrong because she hit me first so its technically called 'self defense') anyways so i got suspended for a week and met a guy lets call him 'Quincie' anyways so i met quincie and shakespear thought he had me figured out cuz he thought i liked quincie so he got a major attitude so me and quincie left his place and hung out together (me and quincie) anyways so now me and quincie are dating...2 weeks today. hes super sweet and handsom but now shakespear dosnt even want to talk to me he wont answer the door or the phone or any facebook msg's...i should have known that nothing comes without a price. gain a boyfriend but loose a friend/crush.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

haze

so im at school right now and so far i havent slept for 48 hours and its freezing outside so once i walk into the school its like my ears are on fire and since the school hates me i spent my lunch running laps around the school track field...well my teacher is calling so i have to go make garlic bread. bye.

workshop

ok so lately my teacher has been makeing all of us go to these kinda workshop things to learn all about the topic like todays workshop is about addictions and d-tox or rehab and crap but im not really interested in learning this stuff. starnge addictions can teach me this stuff but in more details so yeah no need for this workshop...so here i am typing away on my laptop. im kinda bored but the music is keeping me from totally knocking out tho its getting harder and harder especially since this place is so damn cold i mean has this school never heard of the famous world wide used HEATER!!! but no they all decide to bring winter jackets...watever anyways i g2g post on my story blog coreliandoza.


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

friday meyhem!!!

ok so like a month ago we got new neibhors in our building and ever snce they moved in every friday night they have they're music blasting and they're yelling till 3am so i cant get any sleep what so ever and my mom got fed up tonight and called the cops so they should be here bustin down the party in around 5 minutes and i've got a great window seat so i can watch it all happen. i know what im saying is pretty mean but common they had to see it coming i mean seriously they're yelling out the lyrics to S&M by rihanna. not that i dont like the song and everything, dont get me wrong i love rihanna's music as much as the next teenage girl but enough is enough its one in the morning SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU STUPID DRUNK IDIOTS!!! pardon my language im tired

coreliandoza

ok so i've been working on not only this blog but also another one called coreliandoza but the thing is that blog is actually a fiction story im working on and since i want my mom to see how good i am at writing stories i told her about it so she checked it out and now she keeps asking me when im gonna add a post and shes telling all her friends about it so im super happy!!! oh and major news i think im in love...again. see i met this guy lets call him william shakespear. well shakespear is like my dream guy he's funny, hot, smart, he has a divers liscence and he has a job only problem is he's 4 years older then me so what am i gonna do especially since he's so against his own cousin dating a guy 4 years older than her. but i know there's a spark between us and he can feel it to i mean the way he looks at me like the only one around and the way he talks to me more than anyone else and the way he got jealous when he thought i liked someone else... what am i gonna do i cant ask him out but if i dont ill never know if i could have had a chance. god please give me a sign, anything!!!


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

silent library

ok so today i stopped by the library (fav place in the known galaxy) and the librarian told me she was going to a book auction to get more books for the school and asked if i could suggest a few good books and as usual i was all over that i suggested getting a bigger manga section for those kids who only like picture books or for people who actually like manga's and one day dream of being a mangakai like in anicon (a manga in the library) that mentions one of my fav events of the year the anime/manga convention they hold in toronto every year i was so looking forward to it but i missed it over march break last year (crud) anyways so i was raiding the book shelves when i stumbled onto one of my fav books 'vampire kisses' so i grabbed all three books that the library owned (killer!!!) well i gots to go


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

Go-Go Girl!!!

so my life is still hectic as usual but that's no shocker! i still have to pick up after EVERYONE!!! but yeah its alright just use me like a pack mule and throw me away! its what your good at big sister (cynthia) you use me every time then throw me away once your done with me and then if i try to rebel you run with your skinny tail between your legs well this time I'm grabbing you by the tail back to reality and giving you what you so righteously deserve a dish rag and a load of dishes followed by a reality check topped with a good stern talk.

captain obvious

so my dad keeps talking about how i could be so great at everything i do if i only tried and how I'm smarter than this and that I'm not even using 10% effort right now. well DUH!!! maybe its because I'm in a shit ass school in a shit ass neighborhood with teachers who don't even care of coarse i wont try at least not until something peaks my interest because honestly i don't even want to be all that smart i just want to be normal like everybody else i don't want to be a smarty pants loser who gets beat up all the time trust me been there done that and plus if i actually become smarter he'll just get bossier and ill get more responsible and everything will change again i don't want anything to change but it seems that's his goal in life for me to be his perfect daughter i mean he wants me to be super smart and he wants me to get a job and he wants me to always fetch things for him and... sorry I'm becoming a blabbermouth aren't i...well ciya next time


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

break time

so as i've said my life is sorta hectic but now that i've joined a sort of program thingy at school things are getting better i can finally think things threw and not have to make big desicions left and right so in a sense its my break time well i have to go finish up a couple of things but ill be back


so keep your feet off the ground and keep your head in the clouds.

and the wheels keep on turning

so school started back up and well what can i say life hasnt exactly gone from freaky to normal actually quite the contrary its gone from freaky to way way freaky... i thought once i gave up on a guy i liked lets call him 'Blaze' that life would go back to normal and i could start a new school year fresh but i was dead wrong once the school year started my big sister 'cynthia' totally bailed on us so i was left defenseless against what happened next. blaze put his number on facebook and told me he wanted to be just friends so i kinda couldnt say sorry buddy but im kinda trying to get over you, so i accepted to be his friend but then i was in a major slump cuz my best friend 'bambam' told me she was moving so i saw his number on my cellphone (i had saved it just in case) and had a moment of weakness so i called him, now i know how stupid that was so the moment he picked up i hung up but then he called my house claiming i had just called a bob and without thinking i corrected him giving away my identity (cuz he knows me so well he knew i would corect him) and making him know that i didnt call him by mistake so we talked and that is how my worst nightmare began

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

my return to civilisation

so i went to a whole different province this month to visit my aunt it was crazy and i had fun. but, like every other day in my life there was major drama... but, it wasn't all bad drama i had a summer love, it was so sweet, pool boy meets girl next door. he was such a hotty and he was so sweet i couldn't help but turn red when my little cousin 'pip skweak' told him I'd been crushing on him for over 2 weeks (one of the many reasons i cant stand her XI ) but then we started to go out and it was fun we went swimming on his shift at the pool and we walked around when i was bored with being at my aunts but like any good story there is always an ending mine just so happened to be us breaking up because i had to go back home which a.k.a. is 5 hours away...       :'( life can be really cruel.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground

wonderland

when Alice was in wonderland she was very confused about everything guess its my turn to be confused in my little wonderland...

lately I've been confused about everything i cant decide on what to eat or what to watch or what to talk about its just like my mind has shut down and worst of all on my dads birthday i had completely forgotten so i couldn't get him a gift i felt so bad s i got him two cheesy cards and one said happy fathers day :'( 

i just wanted to hide in a corner and cry my eyes out at how stupid i was. but he liked it thank god.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

kitty

i always thought i needed a very detailed response but my black cat Bibi never says a word yet i always understand him... i guess i was wrong. i guess actions speak louder than words. it just took a while for me to understand.

so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground.

baby steps

I've always been afraid of trying new things like new food or a new flavour of ice cream but lately I've been trying to change...it took a bit of convincing but i was able to try some great food at a Korean restaurant and i can honestly say i am a fan of wild rice it was CRAZY DELICIOUS. and I've even decided to try watching new shows on TV and not the same old same old and I've even got up the courage to watch movies online instead of always at movie theatres. i guess you just have to take baby steps before you can reach your goal. well that's all for now.


so keep your head in the clouds and keep your feet off the ground...LMFAO XD

random

i know this might be random but when i was feeling down someone told me to check out the show 'life unexpected' and well it was...well...unexpected. i really like the show because for once its not like a fairy tale or a nightmare or something that you wish you had. its the truth. its all about life and its twist and turns and about a not so perfect family trying desperately to make it, in our broken little world. finally a TV show that dosnt seem like a TV show... if you've ever watched it im sure you've made some kind of connection and that you thought for even just a second 'wow i can kinda relate a little'.


well thats all for my random midnight mumbling... lmfao       XD

blazing heat

wow, its not even summer yet and its blazing hot outside... time to hit the beach...or the pool... i was so happy today when my teacher had announced that my class would be getting free ice cream the only problem was, no one thought i should get any ice cream because i don't really participate much in class... i mean i try to participate, but, most of the things we do in my class are group activities or group projects and not many people want to be in my group... so i was really surprised when one of my classmates and my teacher both vouched for me... even if its almost the end of the school year, this semester was pretty cool and i hope that the people i met at this school had a great year to.


i cant wait till I'm an adult so that i can see what everyone has become whether its a scientist, an architect or a ballet instructor I'm sure it will be fantastic. XD

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i feel very lonely. i've always tried to stand out but when i do they think im a freak and ignore me... am i wrong to try and stand out or am i wrong to stay quiet? even if i ask, i never get an answer... it worries me when people talk about me dying alone like the old lady with 12 cats, but sometimes i ask myself if she was ever happy and then i get confussed again...


                                                             whoops im mumbling again... -_-'

hi

hi.


im a very confussed personne, i dont have alot of friends and i get nervous very easily. i really want to change the way i am but im having alot of trouble doing that.